Tis Iz Boredom !

and you fail to notice ..

was it my voice ?

that echoed but never be heard ..

that spoke of the truth but often absurd ..

was it my soul ?

that never illuminate the luminous sky ..

that hurt and burn whenever you lie ..

was it just me ?

that soiled your dreams and ambitions ,

an example of pure futile imperfection ,

and yet you fail to notice ..

perhaps there’s more behind these faint-glowing eyes ,

perhaps there’s stream of emotion beneath that lies ,

how you fail to notice ,

hidden pain of sorrow behind this face ,

shards of misery of this empty place ,

left alone to bear coldness of dark space ,

just waiting for someone for calming embrace ,

so take me in your arms and be my lace ,

everything i need is you , my perfect solace ..

tonight will be the night i’m falling for you ~

but i don’t think i live long enough just for you ~

and i’m glad i’ve found you ~

and i never blame you ~

that your feelings toward me isn’t the same as i had about you ~

and you’re just one of a kind ~

i promise you that you’re always in my mind ~

another girl like you is impossible to find ~

and it is hard to accept that you’re not mine ~

..

and now my heart hurt deep ~

i guess this feeling of mine i shall keep ~

and seriously now i want to weep ~

but i’m a man and i need to stand on my own feet ~

and how i do hope we never meet ~

and thought of you i no longer need ~

and i hate you , look how you make me bleed ~

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p/s : stupidly .. i did cried after i type this .. i’m sorry because it just hurt so much .. nvm .. just abit .. i’m okay .. trust me

changes ,

well been away fer awhile ,

n nw im too bored so perhaps i’ll do a blog .. hurm wht bout it ? changes yeah ~

life and changes , you cant seperate these two ~

okay so tis is my blog , i shall talk bout me ..

phew ~ lemme see ,

used to hit the cue with only right hand , but nw sumtimes i’ll use my left instead ,

used to held bow with left , but nw use my right instead ,

so what these changes bout neway ?

well , people change but yes a very few dont ,

sumtimes we need to change but at certain period we dont ,

yeah i had some changes with myself ,

but yeah i’m glad bout those dat still with me ,

i’m beginning to learn and adapt to changes ,

but sumtimes i ponder as i see people who really need to change ,

or move forward never does ,

is it they cant accept these changes or they r mere fools ?

yeah nowadays ive seen lotsa those that really make fool of themselves ,

how i wish things wud be better but yeah things most of da time never go our way ,

all i can do is perhaps hope da particular person which kinda special to me to accept changes ,

dats juz from my POV but who am i neway ..

will add up more things later but this all fer nw =)

well , i dunno lah but it seems lyke im tired of tis sh!t stuff d ..

u c tis all lyke keep on tearing me frm da inside ..

lyke these ppl actually enjoy destroyin ppl’s souls ..

dont they hv better things 2 do ?

it  juz .. hey come on !

y must u hurt ppl ?

u got hurt urself .. but y must u hurt me ?

u felt dat pain b4 rite ?

u went thru dat loneliest moments rite ?

den y now u’re doin it 2 me ?

y ? y ?! y me ?!

i dun hv these answers but yeah im gettin sick ..

no no not only sick , im tired , im fcuk up , im whole dat sh!tty stuff u wnna think of ..

ure a human , im a human 2 .. so pls .. evntho u dun hv da same feelings as i hv 2wards u ..

pls hv respect .. i dunno wht 2 say nemore ..

mebbe im nt dat guy in d shinin armor of urs ..

mebbe i dun fit in ur "sacred" arms neway ..

n im sorry 4 dat .. reli sorry , n yeah , if u dun notice ..

i do care ! i do care bout u .. evrything dat u do ..

evrything u r .. whu u r .. da way ur smiles ..

everything u does .. evetho it hurt here , deep inside ..

bt pls .. pls i beg u ..

i gt heart n tis heart do hurt !

- r i D z -

wish i could play piano ,

so i can play those songs you love ,

and let my fingers on those keys ,

to feel every love that you left ,

to think of the memories that was given ,

lay by the window while gazing out ,

am i lucky or is it me that is bad ?

drops that unwilingly shed ,

i just cannot bear ,

then the sound just fade ,

leaving me alone again ,

just like you ,

taken and blown by the wind ..

i’m missing those old times ,

once a time when we were young & small ,

i miss your cute smiles ,

i miss you small beautiful little eyes ,

i miss those times ,

when i purposely stepped on your feet ,

seeing you making faces when you’re looking at me ,

when we were at the playground ,

and your curiousity when finding the kittens you loved ,

those sweet moments together ,

but i’m sorry , i had to go away ,

far away from you ,

didn’t have the chance to tell how i feel when i’m with you ,

and everything flew away , and changed ..

today , i went to our old neighbourhood ,

i drove passed in front of your house ,

was looking as i pass ,

hoping i could see you again ,

but you was not there , not in my sight ,

regretting every moments since ,

eventhough we have grown old ,

your memories are still with me ,

how i wish i could tell you ,

.. i miss you ..

take me , burn me ,

hate me , kill me ,

do whatever .. i dun care ..

once again , life proves im wrong ,

u live in heaven , while im a dirt on an old shoe ,

u dun even know me ,

y tis mind thinkin bout u ?

tis heart beats faster in thought of u ..

i dunno ..

but angel deserve 2 b wif another angel ,

n demon wif another demon , or shall it b alone ?

i dunno if i care ,

but ‘m fightin all along ,

still , da love isnt around me ,

is life unfair ? or its juz me ?

well , im just me , all alone , broken inside ,

i can’t just hate this feelings ,

it just stuck between my veins ,

i just wanna find .. i wanna find you !

but does u even care ? you never even there ..

i wish i could give da same feelings to u ,

i feel like wanna cry but what is wrong with me ?!

and i’ve been running away fer far too long ,

i am afraid of it , may be of u ,

what i’ve know is soon to come ,

may be i’m not what u’ve xpect ,

but i can try to give what i cant ,

and i promise u , i will give u da best dat i am ,

hoping one day u’ll understand ..

.. DAMN SH~T HEAD !

well , been thinkin ..

y ? .. well i cant blame anyone .. hmm ..

i’m neither rich nor good looking ..

neither clever nor cute ..

i dun even hv a car or a stylish-brand-new handphone ..

well .. even my hair , i call shit head ..

hmm .. dun hv faith in myself ..

still .. i dun even consider i hv a good heart ..

not even indulge in some great skills ..

worthless ? well .. dats me .. i dunno ..

juz another shit head .. like dirt on a street .. been stepped on everyday ..

yeah dats me .. well .. ya u correct .. im not da one u looking for ..

so please do me a favor .. juz go away .. dun hurt me more ..

everybody screamin ya name .. everybody juz waitin fer ya ..

well .. but me ? who am i ? .. dirt ! ..

u walk on ur red carpet .. u fly wif ya beautiful wings ..

but me ? .. juz standin here lookin .. well .. juz dreamin ..

if u’re heaven .. i’m dirt !

but tis heart cant help longing fer u .. tis eyes cant avoid gazing at u ..

darn ! .. y ? .. ergh .. y ?!

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like u understand !!!??? ..

well .. whut 2 do .. i juz resigned ! yeah .. whut ?

hmm .. y ? i dunno .. need a reason fer resignin meh ? .. huh .. ?

i dun care .. ahhaha .. at least , i can sleep ! waahaaha ..

den dream .. den day dreamin .. den watch my bonzai flowers ..

den clean my room .. den disturb my mum .. den watch tv !! ..

den .. hmm .. dunno .. den write tis stupiak things .. hahaha

well .. nice rite ? .. hmm .. omg .. me really no life .. whut 2 do nia ..

hmm .. hey .. i wonder .. dunno .. i’ve been thinkin .. y ?

err .. nvm .. well .. thousands of questions r goin round n round n round inside my head ..

ergh .. darn it .. but .. haiihz .. nvm .. well .. whut 2 write summore .. well .. dunno la .. ahhaha , if u who r readin tis so free .. well .. sms me ! .. ahhahaa .. ok ok ..

i dunno whut 2 crap more .. juz .. well .. zzZZ ..

"pura vida" ! [riDz]

Well if you want some advice
You gotta listen to me
Getta hold of your life
And you can have a new dream
Forget the ups and the downs
There’s a new game in town
For every turn in the road
There’s a new way to go

I don’t hear what you say
Gonna find my own way
You just try to persuade
Everyone around you

We’ll make it easy for you
Plan everything that you do
Won’t have to work very hard
You’ll make it big from the start
Don’t have to take it from me
Here’s a list you can see
Every one of those names
They found their fortune and fame

Well it all sound so sweet
So simple, so neat
Ah but I can’t believe
Anything you tell me

I know your life’s a big mistake
Let’s go, this music you must face

Listen to me please, get down upon your knees
They’ll never treat you like they did before
I’ll make your dreams come true
now all I need is you
Please believe me and all this will be yours

You’ll have a penthouse in town
You’ll be the king with a crown
Live on country estate
You’ll have a twenty foot gate
Getting tanned at the pool
You’ll be making them drool
Taking trip overseas
Do anything that you please

Well I feel so alone
Where did I go so wrong?
Do you know? Can you tell?
Maybe can you help me

I know, it’s hard for you to take
Let’s go, this move you have to make

Listen to me please, I’m down upon your knees
They’ll never treat you like they did before
I’ll make your dreams come true
now all I need is you
Please believe me and all this will be yours

Your vision will be clear, your pain will disappear
You’ll know that I’ll be watching over you
I’ll chase your blues away
So just change your life today
Everything I say to you is true